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Obese Workbook I: Fat Brain Lies


Carlene's Raw Adventure
July 2005

Fri Jul 1, 2005 6:09pm

This morning I had that brain fog again. I had promised to deliver a project proposal by this afternoon, so I took a nap, a bath, walked, then at noon set to it. I felt good and accomplished a lot, but tonight while out with a friend I had a hard time staying awake 8:00 PM.

I took vitamins today. Detox or not, I can't afford (financially) to put off work until I feel better. I still think it has a lot to do with how little I eat. I keep trying to eat more, but I run out of day.


Sat Jul 2, 2005 6:36pm

Back to my peppy self. I got up this morning, walked the dogs, then called my son-in-law at 7AM to harass him into starting the sprinkler system at their new house. So we worked all day in the 107 degree sun, well, up until 2, took a break and went back out at 5 and worked two more hours. Granted I didn't work as hard as he did, but I did my share. We're back at it again tomorrow morning. I've always liked heavy labor (although I am so out of shape, I can't say what I did today would be considered heavy compared to others), and I've always wanted to know how to do sprinkler systems. What a snap.

Anyway, I'm back to feeling great until I wake up sore tomorrow morning.


Sun Jul 3, 2005 3:18pm

After just 2 hours in the sun today, I called it quits. I wanted to do more, but my back hurt and I did not have enough energy to lift one more shovel of dirt. I guess two days in a row is a little much for someone as out of shape as I am.

I thought maybe I had used up my electrolyte stores (I lost a pound and a half), so I had two bananas for breakfast, but didn't eat any celery for balance until this afternoon. I'm still tired, I should have taken a nap, but I wanted to make sure I had a good nights sleep.

My 30 days raw is drawing near. I'm still amazed at how easy this diet is for me. I have absolutely no cravings. Yesterday, my daughter ate chips with sour cream and onion dip while I sat eating a pear. All those desires are just not there for me. I do find that I enjoy smelling other people's food, and it is satisfying. Yet, I have no desire to taste it. How cool is that?


Mon Jul 4, 2005 4:24pm

After getting back from our morning walk, I went back to bed today and slept until 8. I felt like I had recuperated from my weekend of work in the sun and accomplished a lot.

Today was the first day I actually thought I wanted to eat something other than raw. I figured it was from how little I eat and tried to eat more today. I actually ate half a cup of nuts. I still don't see how people eat so much in one day. I can barely finish one banana never mind ten. Four flax crackers and I'm done chewing.

Oh well, I'll work all this out. Right now I'm fine with what I eat. I did gain half a pound today, but I expected that since I had lost a pound and a half from being out in the sun.

Only two more days, and I've made my 30 day goal. Amazing.


Tue Jul 5, 2005 6:33pm

Tomorrow is day 30. Wow, this was the longest month. Not because the diet was hard, but because I wanted so badly to get here. Now I'm already thinking of six months down the road.

I have to admit today I wanted to eat, eat anything and everything, but I didn't. I figured it was the psychological aspect of getting so close to this first goal. Or maybe it was the fat unhealthy me trying to sabotage my success. Either way it didn't matter. I had somewhere to go, people who would ask about my diet and offer encouragement and that rule imposed when I joined the Summer Boot camp with Racheljj of not eating after 7:30. I like that rule, it ends my eating day and lets me look forward to the next day.

Today I had energy, and a clear mind. I accomplished a lot. Tomorrow I may be going out to lunch if the woman who invited me remembers, if not I'm pretty good about bringing enough food to get me through the day.

I still need to make myself eat more. I did wonder if the cravings came from my body wanting more calories. I don't know where I'd fit them in, I'm not big on the whole smoothie deal. We'll see what happens tomorrow. Not a big enough deal to worry about it tonight.


Wed Jul 6, 2005 3:50am

Well, here I am on my 30th day raw. Granted it was the forum that made 30 days such a challenge, but I made it, no regrets, no fears of being able to continue. Last night when I went to bed, I had this feeling of being thinner. My stomach mostly, it felt firmer, flatter (still big, but different). I woke up with the same feeling. I had hoped that I had started losing weight again, I had. 1.5lbs. Tomorrow will be my monthly weigh in and I'll take measurements again. I'm expecting good results.

An added note from this morning. Out on my walk this morning my neighbor drove by and stopped to tell me that she sees me walking every day and that it is really paying off. That is the first time anyone has noticed I've lost weight. Yesterday two people I know asked if I was still doing raw. They didn't say they could tell, but they were prompted to ask, so maybe yesterday when I felt like I was thinner it finally was true. Doesn't really matter, but I wanted to put it in my journal. Oh, and I told my neighbor about raw. She thinks she might try it.


Thu Jul 7, 2005 4:06am

No extra weight lost from my 30th day, but I'm not complaining. During my 30 day challenge I lost 22.5 pounds. That's a lot of potatoes, or lard! I lost 2.5" from my chest, 4" off my belly, 2.25 hips, and 2" of each thigh. The inch I had lost on my upper arms the first two weeks has maintained. I think my legs are doing so much better because I walk so much, when I get back from my vacation I'm going to have to start using weights, I so don't want bat wings.

So now that it is day 31, what's a girl to do? I guess I'll keep journaling. It's already been such an amazing journey that I can't wait to continue. I've got the eating at restaurants down. I even ate tomatoes yesterday when I went to lunch. Just about everywhere serves salad, asking for no cheese, meat, or dressing is simple enough. Everyone who knows me, knows I'm raw and they don't care, for each whenever we have talked about going out it has been to somewhere I can eat as well.

Of course next week on vacation I'll be up at my sister's. She had read something about raw once and didn't worry too much about me doing it. Her husband on the other hand is a wonderful cook and lives very much between the lines. I'm sure he'll be shaking his head each time he makes a meal and I pull out my fruit and salads, but he loves me, so he'll get over it. My mother will be the interesting one. She is pretty open minded to my diets, but to spend six days traveling with me she will either embrace raw or never want to see another piece of fruit again.

I'm rambling, so I'll stop. I'm just excited about all this, and even though my friends are receptive to my eating raw, they don't want to hear about it all day.


Fri Jul 8, 2005 8:14pm

I just got back from a late dinner at a nice local restaurant that is known for its fish. I had what they called a spoon salad, all the vegetables were cut up small so you eat it with a spoon. I had no problem asking them to hold back the chicken and cheese. I think I've got this whole ordering raw down. My friends know I'll go anywhere as long as I can get a salad.

Since going raw this one month, I have gone out to eat with friends more often then total for the past ten years. Up until a little over a month ago, I had never eaten anything guilt free. I hated that people always go out to eat to socialize, so I just would find excuses not to go. I admit, I am always aware of my weight and what everyone around me is thinking when I order anything other than a salad, which up until this month I never liked. I have never enjoyed food, have never thought oh I can't wait to have lasagna. Food has always been my enemy, but now I find I look forward to going out to eat, I look forward and appreciate everything I eat. I have never, since I can remember, enjoyed food. I'd like to say as much, but the truth is I have never enjoyed food at all, so this is a first for me. Living it up raw! I am still loving it.


Fri Jul 8, 2005 8:14pm

I just got back from a late dinner at a nice local restaurant that is known for its fish. I had what they called a spoon salad, all the vegetables were cut up small so you eat it with a spoon. I had no problem asking them to hold back the chicken and cheese. I think I've got this whole ordering raw down. My friends know I'll go anywhere as long as I can get a salad.

Since going raw this one month, I have gone out to eat with friends more often then total for the past ten years. Up until a little over a month ago, I had never eaten anything guilt free. I hated that people always go out to eat to socialize, so I just would find excuses not to go. I admit, I am always aware of my weight and what everyone around me is thinking when I order anything other than a salad, which up until this month I never liked. I have never enjoyed food, have never thought oh I can't wait to have lasagna. Food has always been my enemy, but now I find I look forward to going out to eat, I look forward and appreciate everything I eat. I have never, since I can remember, enjoyed food. I'd like to say as much, but the truth is I have never enjoyed food at all, so this is a first for me. Living it up raw! I am still loving it.


Sat Jul 9, 2005 4:30am

I think there was something in my salad last night besides vegetables. I guess I actually knew it when I was eating it because there were white kidney beans and they were soft. I had asked specifically for no cooked foods, so I assumed they had just been soaked, as well as the green beans. The green beans were still crisp, but they had been soaked. It could have just been salt, but by the time I went to bed last night I had a headache. This morning I had that salt hangover feeling I get whenever I have processed salt, nitrates, or msg. I can feel my arteries trying to push blood through. I'm sure that's an exaggeration, but close.

Oh well. Today I'm going to do another liver cleanse. I did one just two weeks ago, but my gall bladder is full again and is starting to bother me. It could be a good thing, it means my liver is trying to push out crap it's been holding onto for years. Another good thing is that I'm still eating things that require bile (must be the nuts) so once I get it cleaned out, the clean flow of bile will keep the stones at bay. Truth be told, the last two times I cleansed, there were no gall stones, just mounds of sludge and cholesterol rocks. The body is an amazing thing.


Sun Jul 10, 2005 11:33am

Yesterday was a big day for me. I went clothes shopping. Nothing great, just tees and capri's to take on my vacation. Granted XL sounds big, but when you've been buying your clothes for years in Plus sizes it's nice to pick something up from a regular rack. Some of the clothes didn't look good, because, I'm still fat, and as I came out of the dressing room I was a little bummed, but then a small voice in my head said. "Don't think about it, soon you'll be beautiful." That was very cool. I smiled and think I said thank you out loud. I am so geared for the long term effects of this diet that I am sure I will reach a healthy weight within the next ten months.

Another thing I noticed is that even though I counted every day during my 30 day challenge, today I had no idea how long I had been raw. Since this is my 35th journal entry, I think it's 35 days, but time isn't an issue anymore. I do worry about being able to do raw pure for the rest of my life, but when those thoughts come I push them aside. I'll worry about that when the time comes. There are enough people here who have eaten cooked and gotten right back to raw without problem. I think I will be able to take their lead.

I've probably said this before, but I just have to say it again. I am so amazed at how good I feel being raw. Yesterday I took all my fattest clothes to a donation center. They don't fit me anymore. I have never thrown away fat clothes because I always knew no matter how much weight I lost I would more than likely need them again. I don't feel that way anymore. I can already see myself thin and healthy. I have no intention of ever...no wait that is wrong. I know positively that I will never need those clothes again. I have finally found something so perfect for me, I can for the first time in my life see myself happily thin eating much more than half a tuna sandwich a day.

Oh, one last thing. As of today I no longer have 100+ pounds to lose. The month before my 30 day challenge I tried raw for a week and had done a 3 day alkaline fast followed by a 3 day protein drink fast. So I started my 30 day challenge 14 pounds lighter than the month before, so including that 14 pounds, I have lost 40 pounds in a little over 2 months. I am stoked!


Mon Jul 11, 2005 5:52am

Today I leave for a 10 day to 2 week vacation. Sweetlips just started a thread for those of us who need to lose a ton of weight. I'm not going to be a part of it, and that kind of bums me out. I won't even get to read what others say until I get up to my sisters at the end of the week and steal some time on her computer. There are going to be so many of us there, I doubt I'll get much time to use it, but I'll try.

I left the puppies at my daughters last night, so I woke up this morning alone. Habits die hard with me, so I was up at 5:30 and out walking. I finished up a liver cleanse yesterday, and this morning was so full of energy, I really picked up the pace of my walking. By the time I got home I felt as though I had a workout. I love having energy. I bought myself a sit-up bench for when I get home. I really want to start getting my stomach and upper body toned to help keep my skin energized so it will play this game and shrink with the rest of me.

Last night at my daughters we were talking about how much weight I have already lost and how quick. I told her my goal was to hit 125 by Christmas. That will be 129 pounds in 7 to 8 months. I was honest and said I would probably have to restate that goal the closer I got to it because the weight loss would slow down, but that it was my goal and the thought of it just made me smile.

She was shocked that I would expect such a thing, and then we started looking at how many months before I weighed the same as her. September first was our estimate. That shocked her even more. She herself is heavy, but is happy with it. Well until she thought that she would be the biggest one in the family. She decided that when I weigh the same as her she would go raw with me. Then right before I left she told me that when I get back from my vacation we should talk again and get her this excited and she will probably join me in raw when I get home.

I just feel like, "touch me I'm gold." That is an awesome way to start a vacation.

I'm going to miss journaling and the forum, but I guess I will be defending raw so much in the next two weeks it will be like having my own family forum.


Fri Jul 15, 2005 7:57am

Just a quick note. I'm at my sister's and won't get much time on the computer with everyone using it. We took 3 days to come up the coast. I found eating raw was pretty easy because my mother is pretty easy to get along with. I did feel I didn't stop enough for her to eat, but I did ask often.

I didn't get enough exercise though unless you consider driving exercise. The little I did get, walking for a couple of hours at Montano de Oro State park (my favorite place in California) at my mother's pace was nice. Today she got up at 5:30 with me and we walked around my sister's neighborhood, but it was too short and too slow to be satisfying. My leg muscles are aching to be used.

My nephew-in-law is the only one concerned about my diet. He insists it can't be healthy and is plying me with questions. His wife, my niece is a quasy vegetarian and is studying to be a vet so he keeps wanting her to tell me how unhealthy eating raw is. I told him to check in with me at Christmas to see how I am doing.

Tomorrow is a barbeque for my sister's birthday. I'm not to worried about that, I'll make sure there is plenty of fruits and vegetables. Today I'll have to go shopping to get more bananas. They bought a tray of fruit so I would have something to eat when I got here. Of course that would last me only about 1 and a half meals, but I don't want to tell them that.

I'm not sure if this will get hard or not. Right now the hard part is the lack of exercise. It's really making me tired. But what's a girl to do? Leave her mom home? No way. So I'll have to wait until I get home, unless I sneak out a little later in the day.

I miss the forum, and I miss journaling, but I'm doing fine. No cravings. I can easily sit in restaurants and have nothing when someone else eats. At my sisters I have asked for only one concession, and that is they don't make popcorn. I may not win that battle, especially since now they are thinking about it. But my family loves me, and they have been putting up with my odd eating for years.

Hope to get back here again before I leave. We're going to take 4 days to go home and will have my 9 yr old grand niece with us. So that will be interesting.

Miss you all.


Sat Jul 16, 2005 6:20am

It's a new day here. No one is bothering me about what I am eating or not eating. I fessed up and told them how much weight I have lost and they are all very supportive. Omelets were for breakfast, and no one bothered me about it. They did think my morning smoothie was gross, but they are all happy for me. Now that's a great family.

This morning my mother, sister and I went for a much longer and a little faster walk that had hills. That felt good. Last night I took all my grand nieces and nephew for a walk while the grownups ate dinner in peace (they eat very late, after I stop for the day).

Today is my sister's 50th, so we will be having a barbeque. I am going to go out this morning and make sure I can make up a really nice fruit plate and maybe a salad. This is so less of a challenge than I had thought.

Gotta go. Maybe I'll get to write tomorrow.


Sun Jul 17, 2005 8:25am

Everyone is downstairs eating bacon, potatoes, and eggs. I stayed while they were cooking, but used their eating time for a shower and quick note in my journal. This morning one of my nieces joined in on our morning walk. We were out much longer as we tried streets we didn't know where they would take us. Hopefully today we'll get out of the house and go some where. The barbeque was nice, but I need to get out and walk. My butt is killing me for all the sitting. It never recuperated from the drive, and in two days I drive again.

Food is not an issue for me which is real nice. My brother in law only mentioned my eating to their vegetarian friend what I was doing. Other than that it wasn't an issue. No one questioned why I wasn't eating cake, why I didn't go after burgers or hot dogs, or potato salad. I ate nuts before the barbeque and then had a small plate of fruit during it, and no one took notice.

My family has been great, although every time they cook they have to remind themselves I won't be partaking. It's nice having them not care. I feel bad for all those who have to defend themselves constantly. My niece's husband has decided he would call me in a month to see if I was sick of fruit yet.

I am definitely not getting enough fruits and vegetables and have found I am eating more nuts than usual. It just seems easier, I guess, and I'm eating them out of my jar, not putting them in a small dish like I do at home. I won't worry about it, but I will be glad to get back home and to my regular schedule.

I don't feel like I'm losing weight, I actually feel like I'm gaining it. Could be through osmosis. Maybe all those smells come along with calories, or maybe it's just fat fear. My clothes are getting looser so I just need to forget about it.

Anyway. It should be a good day. Oregon is so beautiful, the weather is so nice. I have always wanted to live here, but each time I try, I end up not wanting to leave my daughter. Someday I'll get past that and move to a place that just seems to thrive. I am such a tree and water person, I do not belong in the desert. Who knows maybe some day I'll convince my son-in-law that cool is better than hot, and trees are safer than miles of open desert.


Mon Jul 18, 2005 7:11am

This will be my last day in Oregon. We leave tomorrow morning at 5:30 AM. I'm not looking forward to the long drive, but we are going to stop more and take longer going back to Arizona.

No problems with raw. It's just my life. I was so afraid of going into some form of detox on my trip. Not having energy would have killed me since I have to drive so much, but so far so good. We have some fun, yet odd things planned for the trip down. My little grand niece will be with us, her grandmother is concerned about what I am going to feed her, but fruit is snacks as far as I'm concerned. She's already promised she will be fine.

This will be my last journal entry for about four days. I do miss the forum, but there really isn't any time to sit and read.

See you all soon.


Sat Jul 23, 2005 7:17am

I'm back from vacation and very glad to be back to my old routine. Exercising while I was away was a challenge. My 74 year old mother wanted to walk with me everyday so the pace was much slower, although we did about an hour a day. There was a lot of driving and sitting around my sister's table. I felt as though I wasn't eating much, and even though the first week I didn't feel as though I lost weight, on the trip home I felt like it was melting away. Of course the scale didn't agree. I only lost 3.5 pounds those 11 days which is a slow down from my half a pound a day i was averaging, but it isn't bothering me. Of course there was that thought that since I wasn't watching the scale everyday and psychically focusing on the weight loss that it didn't happen, but in reality I am happy with the results. Most people gain ten pounds on vacation.

I didn't have a problem staying raw even though I took my mother and niece out to restaurants where they were eating some of my favorite SAD foods. I am still loving the smell of cooked foods and seeming to be satisfied just by that. There was never a moment when I worried I would grab that cheese burger away from my niece and devour it.

I also did not have a problem stating my raw choice to my family. They were excited for me actually and noticed how much weight I have lost. They did ask a lot of questions, forgot for the most part until it was time to eat, and then just shrugged their shoulders. None of them thought they could do it, and maybe that was why they left me alone.

We ate in restaurants twice a day during the seven days on the road. I found at breakfast restaurants like Denny's and IHOP I could get a fruit bowl. At other restaurants I asked for a dinner salad and specified no cheese, no croutons. For the most part except for a few crouton crumbs over my tomatoes I didn't have any issues. Maybe it's easier for fat people to ask for specific foods. Waiters assume we are dieting and think all the power to us. I'll take whatever I get and be grateful.

I spent the vacation with my mother, sister, her husband and two daughters, a son-in-law to my sister and my nieces three children. Of all but the three year old, I had the most energy. I took the 9 year old to the sea lion caves in Oregon and walked the steep hills with more ease. Now that was nice.

It was a good trip, but I'm glad to be home. Walking with the dogs this morning was pure joy. To feel my legs stretch, my lungs open, and sweat pour made me feel alive again. We've already done 9 laps and it's only 10. I have a lot of catch up to do, but it was nice to be back on the forum. As I said, it wasn't hard for me to stay raw, but it's nice to be around others who share my joy and journey.

Oh, I did drink coffee 3 of my 7 traveling days. I was doing all the driving and out for 15 hours a day. I don't feel like it was a cheat, well because I'm just not worried about breaking raw at this point in my adventure, but I thought I would log it here.


Sun Jul 24, 2005 6:03am

I'm all excited -- well that's not new! Yesterday I added 100 crunches at a 45 degree angle to my workout as well as mini leg lifts, and arm exercises without dumbbells. I also jumped rope 32 times. Now that doesn't sound like a lot, but when I bought the rope two weeks before going raw I jumped twice and was afraid I would break my ankles. I'm thinking the jump rope, since it is mostly aerobic, will become part of my daily routine. The crunches and arms will have to be every other day so I can start toning up under all this fat.

I love exercise. Sounds strange for someone so out of shape, but I always have. The sense of being strong and able is even more powerful for me than being thin. Of course I have no intention of becoming a 210 pound weight lifter, but I am looking forward to being cut.

I didn't lose any weight yesterday, but I expected that. I tend to gain weight ever time I up the exercise. Sometimes up to 5 pounds in one week. Whether I eat more because I'm more hungry, retain more water, or actually build 5 pounds of muscle that quick it doesn't matter it just gets disheartening. This time though I'm going to go slower. I have over 6 months, probably 9 to lose all the weight, so I can start building muscle slower. Except I have a tendency of overdoing exercise. I walk a mile and then by the end of the week I am hiking mountains and gaining weight. Or I go to the gym and can't get myself to leave. I tend to compete horribly with myself. If I walked an hour today, tomorrow I have to go faster longer. I've been good since going raw and have kept my walking to under 2 hours a day. Today I'm keeping myself from trying more crunches at a bigger angle, but I can't wait for the rope.

I've gone to the exercise forum with hopes of getting help from all the raw athletes there. It's just such a good day. Have I mentioned this before? I just love being raw.


Mon Jul 25, 2005 4:51am

I am actually sore today. Yesterday I did two sets of 100 jumps each with my jump rope. I can see this exercise becoming addictive. It works my lungs, my lower abs and my armpits. I want so bad to do it again today, but then I have read so much about recovery time and don't want to push it. Ah, the dilemmas of life. Today I get to do the crunches and arm work and am forcing myself to use this journal time between my morning walk and more exercise so I can make believe I am not getting obsessed with exercise.

My all or nothing personality really starts to kick in when it comes to exercise. I've become so comfortable with raw that I no longer have to spend my day reading about it or listening to others on its benefits (obsessing), so now I guess I'll turn my focus to exercise. Of course it would be much better if I focused on the program I need to finish or my novel, but no, I'll have to let exercise become as normal a part of my life as raw before I'll be able to move on to a new obsession. My mother hates this about me.

I didn't lose any weight again today. Maybe I've hit a plateau. Usually when I start exercising or even upping my exercise I gain weight, so not losing could be the same as losing if I consider I didn't gain. Now isn't that a circular reference.

Okay, I'm off to my sit-up bench, and then another walk with the dogs.


Tue Jul 26, 2005 5:49am

Last night I stayed up reading. This morning I had to pull myself out of bed at 6:30. Right from the start I figured I would cut my walk down to 4 laps. I was tired and it was already hot. At lap 4 I decided I had enough in me for one more lap, then as I reached the middle of that one of my neighbor asked me how many more laps I had to do. I said one and felt committed to the sixth. It was hot.

Yesterday I did 100 crunches at a deeper angle than before. My abs hurt all day. I liked that. I also used the 1 pound weights for my arm exercises, but I'm not feeling anything from that. Tomorrow I'll have to up the weights.

Today I'm looking forward to jumping rope, and then getting some work done.

Oh, good news. Yesterday I received a PM from SedonaSun. She's here in Tucson. I'm hoping we can do lunch and then maybe some hikes together. That was a big plus for the day.

I did lose half a pound this morning, so I'm feeling lucky!


Tue Jul 26, 2005 11:06am

So I went to jump rope today and I strained my back. I couldn't do it. I can't tell you how disappointing that was. Pacing didn't help, neither did extra walks with the dogs. So I did it. I went to the gym! I did all the arm machines, except the pull up machine. It looks complex and you have to balance on these posts, so I thought I'd leave that for another day. After that I had to see how I did on the Elliptical machine. I can never do it. I did get 7.5 minutes out of it, but for some reason that machine just uses me up. Then I headed to the treadmill, my old friend, standby. Walking draws me. The thought of hiking with Kelly was there for me, but when I went to the website for the hiking club she wants to join they only had tough hikes. I've done strenuous hikes before, my body builds up and I can climb peaks without getting winded, so there I was at a 12% incline for a quarter of a mile, then down to 6.5, then back up to 12 and so forth for a mile. There are no hills where I walk the dogs. Next time I'll also have to add the stair master, in hiking there is a lot of rock climbing, you need to be able to lift your weight.

I was sure I could control myself. Take it in little steps, but I don't have the will power. If only sitting still was as easy as raw!


Wed Jul 27, 2005 9:44am

Here it is noon, and all I've done is return emails and exercise. Oh and talk with my neighbor. I lent her Alissa's book. Since the last time we talked she has been trying to eat as much raw as she can, but her husband likes to cook big meals. She sees me walking everyday and is really starting to notice how much weight I'm dropping.

Last night at my writer's group, my friend who has not seen me since a week before my vacation noticed big time how much weight I've dropped, but more fun is that she kept bringing up my face. "You've got sun," she would say. Then hesitate. "You're not burned, you just kind of glow." I have never said anything to her about raw and skin. How cool was that? She wanted to know more about raw and had been telling her husband about it.

My back still is touchy today. I laid down on my sit-up bench and couldn't pull myself up. I could do my angled crunches, but a full sit-up was absolutely impossible. I'm going to have to work on that.

Angie found a website: http://www.fitnesslynn.com/index.htm
that she shared with me. So this morning I did all but the leg exercises and the ones that required gym equipment with my 5 pound weight. Today I feel my arms for the first time.

I'm going over to my daughters today. Last year for her birthday I bought her a rack of dumbbells. She's never used them so I am going to borrow some back. That is of course unless they are still in storage then I'll never find them.


Thu Jul 28, 2005 7:31am

Today's revelation: It didn't hurt to look in the full length mirror. I could actually stand to see myself for more than a fleeting moment. Now that's been a long time coming.

I just got back from the gym. I was able to do half a mile at 6.5% and half a mile at 12% incline pretty easily, well I was sweating a lot. I also did ten minutes on the Stairmaster. My back was still a little sore from when I strained it the other day, but I did work on it with the machines so hopefully it will get stronger quick.

My son-in-law and I are going hiking on Sunday. There is a place in Sabino Canyon called 7 Falls. About 3 years ago we headed out there, but we went too early and the shuttle that takes you to the trailhead wasn't running yet, so we walked the 2.5 miles (I think) which was all hills, to the trailhead. I didn't make it all the way up to the falls. I was about half an hour away before I called it quits.

We're going to be there too early this time too, but to beat the heat you have to start at around 5. I've promised him I will make it this time. I'm in a lot better shape than I was the last time. Wish me luck.

Today I think I am going to meet up with Sedona Sun for juice down at Wild Oats. It will be so cool to have someone here in town to enjoy raw with.


Fri Jul 29, 2005 4:04am

Met with SedonaSun yesterday for a smoothie at Wild Oats. That was fun. I think we're going to try and do some hiking together. It's nice to have someone in the area who understands the need for raw. She also sent me info on a raw restaurant that will soon be opening here in Tucson. Now I will have a place for my kids to take me on my birthday.

We talked about the 3 month high that proceeds falling off raw for a lot of people. I am concerned about that. I'll be moving into my third month next week. So far raw is not a struggle. I won't anticipate problems, but I will keep my eye out for thoughts of slipping and give myself a back up plan. Since I've been simple raw, maybe I'll make sure I have the equipment I need to make other food. But here I am projecting and don't want to, so I'll just continue thinking I will be able to do this forever and see where life takes me.

I went to the gym yesterday. My upper arms hurt all day yesterday, the lats, they are called, but my legs were just fine. I thought about that all day yesterday, how even with the stepper and the incline I had no pain. Until I went to bed that was. My left leg is sorer than my right. I have to get in touch in Angie and ask if I'm going to hurt everyday after heavy workouts. Even with a rotating plan, that puts me in pain every day. Hmm, I'll have to come up with some kind of plan.


Sat Jul 30, 2005 4:54am

Yesterday turned out to be a pretty bad day. I had pulled a muscle in my inner thigh the day before at the gym and my whole left leg killed all day, and my back still hurts. I felt wiped out and had a headache. I had planned to do a liver cleanse, then decided against it, then decided what the hey, if I feel this bad anyway, I might as well do the cleanse and not worry about it tiring me out.

I still have the headache, but have only a few more hours before I can eat. Afterwards I'll take a nap and come back full force. These cleanses always leave me feeling better.

Tomorrow is my hike with my son-in-law. I may get him to go out on a bike with me tonight, now that is something I haven't done in many, many years. I used to ride a bike everywhere not for sport but as transportation instead of driving to the grocery store, I'd take my bike whenever I could. It would be nice to get back into that.

Oh yeah, I found this homemade recipe for getting rid of stretch marks that I'm going to try. I'm still obsessed with having nice skin when I'm done, so as soon as I can get to Wild Oats and get the massage brush I need I'm going to add that twice a week to my let's get healthy and in shape routine. --Note this recipe did not work.


Sun Jul 31, 2005 5:19am

Bad news. My son-in-law fell the other day and told me yesterday afternoon he wouldn't be going hiking with me. I was so primed for it. It really spoiled my day. Oh well.

I finished up my liver flush yesterday and was amazed at how many gall stones I still produce. I had hoped raw would diminish them, but as usual I feel great this morning. I have more energy both physically and mentally. I'm going to go get those weights today and I think pick up that bicycle. I'm really enjoying all the exercise.

This was fun. I went to my daughter's house yesterday. We were going to go see the Chocolate Factory and she complained about how big my tee shirt was. So I wore one of hers, and it fit, and I looked in the mirror and by golly I looked like a normal person. This is starting to be so much fun. Okay, I'm not delirious, I'm still fat, but not grossly obese as I was just 2 months ago. My daughter couldn't stop smiling at me then reached over and gave me a big hug. That was very cool. Her happiness for me was so genuine it made me happier for myself.